Sadness Confirmed
Well, that's what I get for missing Church a few weeks in a row.
Why did it have to be another teenager? The one that helped me with kids at VBS this summer. The one that made the girls giggle because his hair changed color about as often as the sun went down.
I've only lived here 15 months and that's 4 dead teens that I know about.
How can I protect my own kids when they become able to drive...or riding with friends? Pray, pray, pray. Like I'm doing now? Trust. Like I'm doing now? Have Faith? Like I'm not doing now...
I know that your way is the best way. You've told ME that. I want my kids to live longer than me. That is what I am asking for, God. Like a child I have asked for many things. You have said 'yes' to some and 'no' to others. You have given me things I didn't ask for, but needed. Who am I to know what I need?
Please Lord give me wisdom for each encounter. I ask knowing you will give me that.
"But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind." James 1:6
I walk into the deli and see the owners who just lost their son, and I want to tell them it will be okay, but I know it isn't. The pain is wrenching, ripping and bleeding. I can't listen to the song "my immortal" because I think that is how I would feel if I lost a child. Who knows if that was the intent of the songwriter- but it speaks to me that way.
You have let me feel:
The pure contentment of a baby sleeping on my chest,
The freshness of your breath on my face,
The thrill of falling in love,
The meaning of friendship
and...
The realization that I am special.
The gifts you have made for me are endless.
If pain is a gift, I take it as well.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that testing your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2-3
Trials come for all.
Resistance builds endurance.
Joy and Pain are necessary opposites.
Lord, give me strength. Give me wisdom.
Give it to the parents of the teenagers. please.
Why did it have to be another teenager? The one that helped me with kids at VBS this summer. The one that made the girls giggle because his hair changed color about as often as the sun went down.
I've only lived here 15 months and that's 4 dead teens that I know about.
How can I protect my own kids when they become able to drive...or riding with friends? Pray, pray, pray. Like I'm doing now? Trust. Like I'm doing now? Have Faith? Like I'm not doing now...
I know that your way is the best way. You've told ME that. I want my kids to live longer than me. That is what I am asking for, God. Like a child I have asked for many things. You have said 'yes' to some and 'no' to others. You have given me things I didn't ask for, but needed. Who am I to know what I need?
Please Lord give me wisdom for each encounter. I ask knowing you will give me that.
"But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind." James 1:6
I walk into the deli and see the owners who just lost their son, and I want to tell them it will be okay, but I know it isn't. The pain is wrenching, ripping and bleeding. I can't listen to the song "my immortal" because I think that is how I would feel if I lost a child. Who knows if that was the intent of the songwriter- but it speaks to me that way.
You have let me feel:
The pure contentment of a baby sleeping on my chest,
The freshness of your breath on my face,
The thrill of falling in love,
The meaning of friendship
and...
The realization that I am special.
The gifts you have made for me are endless.
If pain is a gift, I take it as well.
"Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that testing your faith develops perseverance." James 1:2-3
Trials come for all.
Resistance builds endurance.
Joy and Pain are necessary opposites.
Lord, give me strength. Give me wisdom.
Give it to the parents of the teenagers. please.
posted by Kathy @ 10:00 AM
1 Comments:
At January 5, 2005 at 6:53 AM,
Alan said…
You're a Christain?!?!? That's cool. I'm the guy who posted comments on your other two blogs, "Artsie Fartsie" and "Livewire (or whatever it's called)."
I won't even mention my blog this time. It's just good to contact another believer. You're right, prayer is the only thing that'll get you through nowadays.
Profoundly Sincere,
Alan Manning
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