Dear God

Prayer makes your heart bigger, until it is capable of containing the gift of God Himself. Mother Teresa

Sunday, November 26, 2006

I will praise you no matter what

When troubles smack my face...I will turn to you

When I can't keep the pace...I will turn to you

When darkness fills this space...I will turn to you

When I can't win the race...you will turn to me.



Lord, you have always been there for me. You never let me down no matter what the trouble I face. Today I got sick and once again your timing was perfect. You sent me to just the right place for urgent care. This pain did not happen at work...or in some far off unknown city. You heal me and pick me up when I am tired. You send me friends and give me your grace.

It is in these times of trial, that I seek you most. For that I am thankful. A heart that seeks your grace...what could be better?

If I must go through the fire, I know the pain is not wasted. I am refined and made into something usable. Lord, I am your servant...now and always.

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

YOU Found ME

Lord, you touched my heart today. I know I've been mad at you lately. It wasn't your fault. Because You live...I live.

While I was running, tears fell down my cheeks, mixing with the sweat on my face. Only you could see the pain that I refused to give up. I am not alone. You carry me and my burdens. Thank you Lord...YOU FOUND ME.

YOU FOUND ME, by Kelly Clarkson

Is this a dream?
If it is
Please don't wake me from this high
I'd become comfortably numb
Until you opened up my eyes
To what it's like
When everything's right
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

So, here we are
That's pretty far
When you think of where we've been
No going back
I'm fading out
All that has faded me within
You're by my side
Now everything's fine
I can't believe

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me
You found me

And I was hiding
'Til you came along
And showed me where I belong
You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know?
How did you know?

You found me
When no one else was lookin'
How did you know just where I would be?
Yeah, you broke through
All of my confusion
The ups and the downs
And you still didn't leave
I guess that you saw what nobody could see
You found me

Thursday, March 23, 2006

2 am Anxiety

Here I am again...

Falling down from a life I've tried to lead. Why does the load drag behind me? It is the same one I've held on my back all this time. I used to let you carry it for me. Oh, how heavy it has become.

Do I ever praise you? Do I ever thank you with deep sincerity? I say grace before I eat. I raise my hand to thank you at the top of a hill. It is routine.

It is after 2 am and I can't sleep. My thoughts have run away to the darker world. Sin is a slippery cave. I will not find you in there. My eyes can't find their way out. Close them Kathy. Listen to his voice.

Lord, I pray that you will guide me out of here. I have lost you in anger. I am deep in the well of sadness. Come and find me. Pull me out.

You speak to me through song. I'm begging you to be my escape.

Sunday, November 20, 2005

Send Help!!!

Lord,
Please don't let him do it. Don't let him kill himself. I don't know how to help him. Send someone to help. If that person is me...tell me what to do.

Monday, October 31, 2005

swollen eyelids

Only you know my pain. I share it with you alone. The depths are deep and cold. I can't smile. I can't sing. I can't take another step. I want to sleep forever. I need you Lord.
Be with me.
Forgive me.
I'm so sorry.

Friday, October 21, 2005

let me live with JOY

Let me live with Joy

When the rain of sorrow,
saddens all my days
Let me live with JOY
brushed careful on my face

The sun will come out
The stars will shine bright
in the sunny sky
in the moonlite night

I shouldn't have a fear
I know you are above
all the cold
and all the love

Put me in the room
that shines with all your bright
let me live with YOU
and everything that's right

Sunday, August 28, 2005

Simply put

Lord, help me to find the strength to finish what I start.